Dead Hearts Still Feel ~Rouze~

[jerall von kreiss]

Jerall looked at Rouze, a feeling of newfound understanding washing over him. Despite the news, he smiled then closed his eyes for a second before speaking.
"Rouze... i toy with my life everyday... everytime i try and bring back the dead i put myself at risk for losing everything... The man who gave me the Libri Obscurum Eternus was over four hundred years old, i'm sure of it... But now that i think of it... you're a Succubus, aren't you..." He looked at her face with a soft expression, a small smile twitching in the corner of his mouth. "It doesn't matter, not to me and not in the slightest what you are or how old you might be or why you kill... everything has a reason, a purpose... i can't fault you for killing people, you're simply living your life loyal to who and what you are, that's more than what i can say for most humans..."

Al lifted up his right hand and stared at it for a second then clenched it into a fist, his finger nails digging into his skin just a bit, just enough to break through the epidermis. Value my life... ... how the hell can i do that... how can i do that when i'm responsible for what happened? "Rouze... ... ... I don't value my life... i don't appreciate my life in the slightest... how can i when i killed the two people i cared about more than anyone else? If i die then so be it... i don't fear death, only the loss of more people i care about..." His voice was low and ready to crack as a small tear threaten to drip from his eye. "All i want is the people i care about to smile again... i did that to one of them already..." he glanced over to Rouze again, a gentle smile on his face again.

[rouze azriel]

"Rouze... i toy with my life everyday... every time i try and bring back the dead i put myself at risk for losing everything... The man who gave me the Libri Obscurum Eternus was over four hundred years old, i'm sure of it... But now that i think of it... you're a Succubus, aren't you..." Rouze looked trough his eyes and a big small came to her mouth, how smart, she was in bed with a smartie, how impressed was she for it, but well it was nothing compared to sleep with a human, and a necromancer. "Bravo, first human that founds out what am I and doesn't get hurt in the intent" she said now raising and slowly sitting on the bed, giving him her back.

"It doesn't matter, not to me and not in the slightest what you are or how old you might be or why you kill... everything has a reason, a purpose... i can't fault you for killing people, you're simply living your life loyal to who and what you are, that's more than what i can say for most humans..."She thought for it in that second, she realized that she could be an angel or a demon, either a vampire or a witch, and he could stand with it, "Nothing is an accident Jerall, and if you don't mind, I would prefer that you stay away from me" she said glancing at him over her shoulder, "I should be killing you by now, but I guess your not too smart to run away, aren't you?" she said with a bitter voice. She was decided to push him away from her, just to save him, but something came to her mind, what if he could ... turn her into a human again? No no, impossible, she needed to take advantage of this time, she wasn't being selfish, she was thinking of someone else before herself.

"Rouze... ... ... I don't value my life... i don't appreciate my life in the slightest... how can i when i killed the two people i cared about more than anyone else? If i die then so be it... i don't fear death, only the loss of more people i care about..." "All i want is the people i care about to smile again... i did that to one of them already..." Rouze sighed, "You need to kill the past, because your living in it, and no one will come back from death, you need to catch that boy, the only thing you can do is burn that book and get a life" she said with a rude tone of voice, she just didn't understood him, he needed to become a normal person and do a life with a wife and kids, no regrets, no past, just future, what more else she could dream about? she was destinate to be just in earth for the rest of her days, waiting for an angel to come and kill her in her boredom.

[jerall von kreiss]

Jerall looked at Rouze, listening to her voice as she gave him a piece of her mind, the smile still on his face as he inhaled then breathed out. "Kill the past... ... I have nothing but my past... my life was over four years ago, drinking myself under the table at bars until i got the book from him... My life now is trying to bring life back to those who were claimed too early... even if i tried... i wouldn't be normal, never again... going back is impossible because i have nothing to go back to... no family, no home... nothing, everything burnt to a crisp..." He sat up, his face calm despite her hurtful words. "Why is that you warn me? are you trying to protect me? if you wanted to kill me you would have done it long ago... and i wouldn't have been able to resist, we both know that... so why?'

[rouze azriel]

"Kill the past... ... I have nothing but my past... my life was over four years ago, drinking myself under the table at bars until i got the book from him... My life now is trying to bring life back to those who were claimed too early... even if i tried... i wouldn't be normal, never again... going back is impossible because i have nothing to go back to... no family, no home... nothing, everything burnt to a crisp..."

Rouze stood up with the sheet and starte to walk to the mirror to see her face, beautiful but she knew that eventually will need human blood, and she could take it easily from jerall, even if she didnt want to. "If you dont have any to go back to, then why you still with that stupid idea? if you have nothing its because you want it that way, what would i do for have the chance you have, stupids, retards humans, thats what this raze is, they dont know about anything, your so selfish even saying that you only care for other people, you selfish..." she said pointing him with her finger. Then she took some clothes of her closet.

"Why is that you warn me? are you trying to protect me? if you wanted to kill me you would have done it long ago... and i wouldn't have been able to resist, we both know that... so why?' "Because as you may know, im not like you, i have control, if you want to get killed, then you just need to say it, the pleasure would be mine, but you have a life, and your wasting it with dead people... just think, would your family like to see you like this? like shit?" she said taking black jeans and a white shirt.

[jerall von kreiss]

Al Looked at Rouze, his face unreadable and his gaze distant. Despite his resolve in his dream, her words had struck his core and shattered it wholly and completely. New even more demoralizing thoughts entered his head even as he tried to reestablish his confidence in his goal.

is she right? what would my mom and brother say... what would they think of me? god dammit! no... no, i have to... i have to find a way! but... what if they are someplace better? would they even want to come back? was i just wasting my life the whole time? then what have i been doing this whole time?!?!

Jerall flinched as his fingernails dug into his skin, causing him to drip blood on the sheets. He was destroyed... mentally... emotionally... completely obliterated by a single phrase from Rouze's lips...

"How could i have forgotten... ... ... Rouze... what i wanted most next to my family was you... ... ... how could i have forgotten?" His voice was barely audible as he sat in the bed, still bleeding from his hands from the cuts.

[rouze azriel]

"How could i have forgotten... ... ... Rouze... what i wanted most next to my family was you... ... ... how could i have forgotten?" Rouze sighed and then wear the clothes, with out putting underwear in her body, she didn't need it, she went to sit in front of the mirror and saw her beauty face, and passed a brush trough her hair as she just spit the first that came to her mouth.


"Jerall, i cant interest you, you don't even know me, I'm not even human god dammit" she said aloud, then she recovered herself and started again "What i try to mean is that, your human, I'm a demon, your family is dead, your trying with hopeless things, what are you made of? what are you besides a sick person who doesn't have any love for himself at all? React! please..." she said almost in a beg, god this guys was getting her out of her mind.

[jerall von kreiss]

Al jumped up out of the bed, throwing the sheet off, his face suddenly bearing an expression straight out of hell, deep crevasses suddenly appearing on his face and his brows threatening to become part of his eyeballs.

"I don't care if you're a demon! i couldn't care less about that! How can i love myself after i killed my own family?!?! It's my fault they're dead! but now i actually felt happy... i felt good for the first time in years... and it was only after helping you! why... god dammit, why?!?! I'm not talking about the sex... it was helping you when you were being harassed by those men... i just want to be by your side... that's all i want now... please.." He voice cracked and suddenly fat tears were dripping down his face as his strength failed him and he fell back to the bed. He was begging her not to go, plain and simple... no tricks, no false emotions that he was so good at putting on, just his raw inner self. "Don't go Rouze... please... i don't care... i just want to help you... just being with you, hearing your voice... it more than enough for me..." he looked at her, his eyes still dripping with tears, which he fiercely wiped away and tried to conceal when his emotions subsided.

[rouze azriel]

"I don't care if you're a demon! i couldn't care less about that! How can i love myself after i killed my own family?!?! It's my fault they're dead! but now i actually felt happy... i felt good for the first time in years... and it was only after helping you! why... god dammit, why?!?! I'm not talking about the sex... it was helping you when you were being harassed by those men... i just want to be by your side... that's all i want now... please.."

Oh dear this would be more difficult for her, he was being weak, and she couldn't help but feel shame for him, he had been trough a lot, but he needed to understand that nothing he could do right now could recover a dead past. He should bury it. "I'm not talking about sex either! Oh Al, how can I make you understand, this is so wrong, I cant be with you, If we stay together I will eventually kill you" she said almost in a moan, her eyes about to turn into a soft purple, and his eyes full of water. She was about to leave the room when he spoke.


"Don't go Rouze... please... i don't care... i just want to help you... just being with you, hearing your voice... it more than enough for me..." She stopped and closed the door with a loudly punch. "Help me? how in hell you want to help me? giving me your blood? that wouldn't be helpful, No No please Al don't make this hard, i feel shame for you and your not making it easy, do yourself a favor and kill yourself, have some respect for your own person" she said angry about to attack him, with her gaze in a bloody red. "The only way you could help me is turning me into a human again, and guess what? you cant" she said before leaving the room.

She sat in the stairs, smoking a cigarette.

[jerall von kreiss]

Al looked at Rouze, hearing her painful words that struck him almost as if she had a large sledgehammer and was beating him repeatedly with it. Each word fell on his ears with the weight of an anvil and each brought up a new wave of newfound helplessness until it felt as if he would physically drown in a sea of despair and self-loathing. then he heard her speak the words.

Turn her human... ... human... ... again... ... what about taking in a demon myself... what about then... would she accept me then? that aside... how would i be able to do that... wait, the Binding Circles!

Al jumped up after Rouze had gone out, throwing back on his clothes then grabbed his backpack then yanked out the Libri Obscurum Eternus then flipped it to the page he wanted, now excited beyond hope. His fingers eagerly traced the lines of fine cursive script, memorizing the arcane designs and occult symbols used in the binding circles.

If i can bind a soul to a body... then, in theory... i can remove one that doesn't belong! ... maybe i can... i might be able to do it, it'll take a while sure but i might be able to do it!

Excited by the new idea he ran out next to Rouze, his face once again hopeful and beaming as he ran next to her, despite the cigarette smoke.

"Rouze... i know this was unintentional... but you just gave me an idea... most demons are created through spiritual possession, right? well, in Necromancy, you learn how to bind spirits into dead bodies... well, i was thinking that, if i can bind them... i might be able to remove them too!" He stated eagerly before continuing. "You could become human again!"

[rouze azriel]

"Rouze... i know this was unintentional... but you just gave me an idea... most demons are created through spiritual possession, right? well, in Necromancy, you learn how to bind spirits into dead bodies... well, i was thinking that, if i can bind them... i might be able to remove them too! You could become human again!"

She had finished her cigarette when she threw it to the floor, not caring if the apartment die in ashes because of it, she could die too in there, and for Al well, we should see what would he do in that situation. He was saying nonsenses about his book, nothing that were in book was real, nothing, and besides more than being human she wanted to kill witches first, she didn't knew what she wanted yet. just the thought of being human gave her shivers down her spine.

"Al, why don't you get tired of this? of me pushing you away, making shit your hopes, why??? Humans are despicable, you cant stop me now, and never."

[jerall von kreiss]

Al shook his head at her words. Despite how much they hurt, he was damned determined to make himself useful to her, even if she was damned determined to try and chase him off. Despite himself, he started laughing, this one having the tone as if he was forcing himself to laugh in stead of crying out in pain.

"You crushed my dream... now i have nothing left... nothing but trying to be helpful for you... You might've forgotten it Rouze, but humans don't let go of things easily... i won't let this slip through my fingers, if i can help you, i'm happy... if you want to chace me off i'll come back like a stray dog coming towards a warm home on a winter night... i want to help you, that's all... i dunno why you're so interested in witches, but i can give you what information that i have in the Libri Obsurum Eternus... it's not much but it might prove handy for you if you plan on hunting witches... trust me..." He paused for a moment before continuing, "Trust me... after i had that run in with an earth witch, i had to look up ways to get around their regerantion ability... even then... taking her out wasn't easy..."

He flipped open the book to a small chapter, this one detailing the various elemental witch abilities... well, it would have if it had been written normally, not in the strange cypher that the writer had used. Realizing this, Al looked at Rouze.

"if you want i can rewrite this chapter so you can keep it and read at your own pleasure..."